I fell down on my way back today, tripped over analogs of sticks and stones and it hurt so badly. It still does. I thought i'd never fall like that, the possiblity did conjure up in my mind's eye and it scared me because the pain was so easy to imagine... yet i stupidly took the route because i believed that it'll be safe. But when such a belief is proven wrong in such a blatant sudden manner, it hits you awake, and then it hurts twice as hard. Because your trust was played out. Because your judgement let you down.
It's going to take a while for the wound to heal, but it will, just like all my others. In the meantime i wont be stupid enough to take the same route.